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[Tempatan] Dibuli dan dirotan setiap hari kerana tidak fasih berbahasa Mandarin di Malaysia. Tradisi buli diteruskan sehingga kini melalui pengambilan jawatan peringkat melalui polisi Mandarin Speaker Only

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Disclaimer: In Real Life is a platform for everyday people to share their experiences and voices. All articles are personal stories and do not necessarily echo In Real Lifes sentiments.

Story by Carmen Tan

Youre not Chinese. Nobody wants you, mocked the cruel voice through the toilet door.

Let me out! Please! I begged.

No. Go and flush yourself down the toilet bowl.

I was in Standard 1. I had been enrolled, against my wishes, in a famous SRJK(C) school in the Klang Valley.

Early on, I had trouble making friends. One day, a group of my girl classmates invited me to go to the school toilet with them.

Bursting with glee at the thought of being friends at last, I followed them and they trapped me in a cubicle.

I pleaded to be let out, but they refused, hurling insults at me through the shut toilet door. Im a banana. Im not Chinese enough. Im a failure.

Well, they were right about the banana part. And because of this, my classmates took my pocket money.
I speak English as a first language at home. My values are western, and I enjoy western pop culture.

So what? you ask.

So a lot of things, to the teachers in my Chinese school.

For one, I am most comfortable speaking English. Eventually, my class teacher got fed up. So, she decided that any one of my classmates could take all my money if they caught me speaking English.

My classmates would trick me into saying English words so they could pinch my cash, and when I did not fall for it, they would take my money by force.

For years, I lost my daily pocket money like this. I could not tell my parents, as they did not believe me. In fact, they would punish me further for lying or exaggerating.

Throughout my years in Chinese school, I was never allowed to forget that I am a banana.

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It was firmly embedded in my head that I was different.

My teachers and classmates constantly reminded me that I was less than.

They would tell me that I was a shame to my parents, to my country, to the Chinese race. I would be better off dead. I had no future in life.

As far as I can remember, I was the only banana in my circle. I am sure there were more in my school, I just didnt get to know them.

However, I do remember this Eurasian girlhalf white, half Chinese. She had light brown hair and Caucasian features, and I remember my peers disliking her for it, calling her names.

I do wonder if she received the same type of treatment as me.

I was caned daily.
For speaking English. For failing to achieve desired grades. For making mistakes. For speaking in class. All sorts of things.

Getting canned and screamed at became such a normal part of my day. And since the teacher couldnt cane me into becoming a better student, they sent me from class to class to tell them, I am a shame to my parents. I am a lazy good-for-nothing. I am a useless girl.

Eventually, I had to go to the staff office to recite those lines, or to the headmistress office.

The other staff would ignore me, but the headmistress caned me once.

Once in Standard 2, I desperately needed to use the bathroom.
I asked my teacher for permission, but my maths teacher refused. Instead, she forced me to solve an equation on the board first.

When I got it wrong repeatedly, she screamed at me and caned me until I wet myself in front of the whole class.

After that happened, she screamed at me again and caned me some more, then sent me outside to stand under the sun until I dried off.

Up until that point, I was consistently scoring 80 100 marks in maths.

But after that incident, I have never been good at maths.


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My class teacher from Standard 4 to 6 used to impress upon me how useless, worthless, lazy, and stupid I was.
She also got a kick out of telling me to die so that my parents will not have to waste their money raising me.

This was in addition to caning in front of the whole class.

Twice a week after school, I would go to her house for tuition class, during which she would cane me further.

She would burn incense, blare chants from Buddhist sutras while yelling at me as I sat there trying to complete my exercise sheets.

Youre a disgrace! Repent! Learn some shame! she would scream. And when I made more mistakes, she would cane me some more.

Once, I corrected her English, and she whisked out her kitchen knife, lecturing me about respecting my elders and teachers.


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My English teacher in Standard 5 and 6 was the only reprieve I had.
English class was the only class where I escaped the cane, because I thrived at English.

Of all my teachers, this English teachers face has left the most lasting impact on me, because she always looked at me sadly.

In Standard 6, she picked me to join a writing competition.

It was one of the proudest and happiest moments of my young life!

Actually, my poor performance was because English is my first language and I had trouble understanding the lessons in Chinese.
When I enrolled, I could not string together a single sentence in Mandarin.

Naturally, this caused plenty of stress. Coupled with all the verbal and physical abuse, it was no wonder I couldnt score As.

However, I miraculously scored straight As in UPSR.

Today, I am an academic. I hold a masters degree.

I also know 5 languages and 4 dialects, proving that I am actually good with languages.

I only wish that I could experience Chineseboth the language and culturein a gentler environment.




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Both my parents were English-educated.
Hence, they could not help me with any of my school work.

However, they wanted my sibling and I to go back to our roots.

They also figured that learning an extra language wont hurt, as mastering Mandarin would mean more opportunities.

As such, we were forced through the SRJK (C) system.

I did not have a say in this.

Around Standard 3, I begged to be sent to a different school, but my mum convinced me that changing school would mean losing all my friends and never making new ones.

I was determined not to lose my single close friend at the time, so I obliged and stayed on.

But who am I kidding? Leaving wasnt really an option.

And hence continued the saga.

I am still processing the trauma today.
Those six years in Chinese school cemented that I will never be Chinese enough. As a result, I leaned hard into the English language.

Up till today, I have never touched any Chinese media or Chinese pop culture.

I simply dont want anything to do with the Chinese culture anymore.

Maybe many many years in the future, I would unlearn my hate and bitterness, and approach the Chinese culture again.

Maybe.


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My takeaway from my Chinese school experience is that a lot of Chinese people grow up in social bubbles.
Their world views are narrow and shallow.

Throughout my six years there, the teachers and students knew only one means to education: rote memorization, straight-A results, and using physical pain to shame and push the children into success.

Not to forget all the propaganda: Calls to always remember your alma materthe SRJK(C) school, likened to a firm but loving mother. Be grateful to her. Support her financially. Chinese people are a superior race, as evidenced by our grades.

Not to forget that Malaysian Chinese tend to have a victim complex, and this was drilled into us in Chinese school: The government and other races do not like us Chinese, and they are all against Chinese education.

The solution is that Chinese schools need to fund themselves, and thus the students are exploited, going door-to-door, bugging every relative and friend, begging for donations.

Failing to collect a certain amount of donations earned me more caning. I failed every single time.

No doubt there is beauty in Chinese culture, but they are only available to the insiders, not an outsider like me.
Differences were not tolerated. Maybe my experience was unique, and it is possible to have a perfectly enjoyable SRJK(C) experience as a banana, but that was not what happened to me.

Until today, I feel like a stranger in my own home. The government labels me a pendatang, whereas my teachers and peers in school, as well as my Chinese-educated relatives full-on rejected me for being not Chinese enough.

Sometimes, I look at Chinese culture and feel like a tourist.

Sometimes, I watch documentaries about what is supposed to be my own culture and wonder what it would feel like to have a sense of belonging and pride in family history and cultural roots.


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The 2008 Beijing Olympics was probably the first time I felt proud to be Chinese.
I saw people who looked like me achieve great feats in an international arena.

Nevertheless, it was a distant feeling. It was a far-fetched identity I could not claim.

Since then, Ive visited China a few times, but I feel no connection to my ancestral motherland.

Its been 4 generations since my ancestors left China, so that is not my home. Malaysia is.

In my work, I sometimes encounter archival text on early Malayan Chinese.

While Ive read some terrible accounts proving that classism was rampant even back then, sometimes religion succeeds in binding people together, like the Feast of St. Annes at St. Annes church in Bukit Mertajam.

The feast of St. Anne is an annual event that spans 10 days and usually attracts thousands of pilgrims from all over the world.

Every year, people of diverse races, ethnicities, and language unite to celebrate. Those are interesting intersections of unity to me.

Language greatly divides Chinese-educated and English-educated Malaysian Chinese.
Of course, each has its benefits. As a banana, I have greater, earlier, and far easier access to a larger Western pool of academic resources.

Naturally, my perspectives will differ from Chinese-educated folks who have access to a completely different pool of resources and maybe only encounter new perspectives at the university level.

Nonetheless, I observe that because of these differing vantage points, there is conflict between Malaysian Chinese across the language divide.

For example, Chinese-educated individuals tend to have Confucian values ingrained in them, which are collectivist in nature. Everybody has a role to play, which is also why gender roles are a norm in traditional Chinese households. The role of the children is to serve their elders, even if this means sacrificing their own sense of self, dreams, and ambitions.

On the other hand, bananas are more individualistic. Thats why non-conforming bananas usually have an easier time than their Chinese-ed counterparts.

In other words, to the Chinese-ed, the family is the smallest unit, whereas the bananas view the individual as the smallest unit.

This would subconsciously affect ones attitude about money, career, life partner, etc.

I sincerely hope that SRJK(C) schools are different now.
I think more students would have thrived and lived far healthier childhoods if schools could accept being different as new learning opportunities, rather than punishing children for being who they are.

Being a banana is who I am now, and who I was as a kid. Just because I speak English, enjoy western pop culture, or hold values associated with the west does not make me a failure in life.

It does not mean that I have failed my parents, my ancestors, nor my country.

I just wish my teachers knew that.

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Post time 24-2-2021 11:23 AM | Show all posts
Edited by annehuda at 24-2-2021 11:26 AM

pasal banana ni aku teringat dj mix fm ke hits fm, die pun citer gak die tu nama je org cina tapi makbapak die pun suruh die cakap english je. ujung2 jadi dj radio. pastu die mcm kene tekan la jugak sbb tak fasih cakap cina. banana ni yellow outside but white inside.
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Post time 24-2-2021 11:41 AM | Show all posts
Nasib zaman sekarang zaman viral, ada jugak kebaikannya walaupun sikit. Tak berapa sempat cikgu nak abuse students mcm zaman dulu. Even aku yang SK pun penah dibuli emosi oleh ustazah sekolah rendah dulu.
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Post time 24-2-2021 11:47 AM | Show all posts
gigih mandarin speaking only kenkonon buat biz dengan china, tapi biggest IPOs in the world especially tech based and socmed mcm fb and ig aman2 jah kena block kat sana
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Post time 24-2-2021 12:05 PM From the mobile phone | Show all posts
Katakan tidak pada pembuli
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Post time 24-2-2021 01:00 PM | Show all posts
Jika mahu menjadi cina yang betul2 mengapa tidak berpindah ssaja ke tanah besar?
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Chindian Looking To Rent Room Rejected Because Hes Not Fully Chinese
https://worldofbuzz.com/chindian ... -not-fully-chinese/
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Post time 24-2-2021 01:32 PM | Show all posts
If this is what's going on in Chinese schools, I feel sorry for the kids. Sorry that the shame culture is what motivates progress, rather than believing in individual uniqueness and potentials. This would affect kids' mental health.  I wonder how disabled students are treated.

Hope the author's experience doesn't represent all Chinese schools.
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Post time 24-2-2021 02:09 PM | Show all posts
Cainis mmg brlagak.
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Post time 24-2-2021 02:21 PM | Show all posts
suntuk sangat pemikiran cina Malaysia ni....

dekat Eropah ke USA, orang cina relax je, tak heboh nk wujudkan sekolah vernekular

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Post time 24-2-2021 03:18 PM From the mobile phone | Show all posts
Cerita kak hasanah ke ni?

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Post time 24-2-2021 03:31 PM | Show all posts
Susah jugak ye..pegi SJKC tak diterima, nak pegi SK ditakut2 kan kena tukar agama. Sudahnya memendam rasa la banana. Sekolah aku dulu, betul2 sebelah dgn sekolah cina...ada jgk lah budak cina yg masuk SK. Tapi dorang buat hal diorang je. Time agama, diorang pun ada kelas diorang sendiri. Yg pasti tak pernah pulak aku tgk cikgu melayu  nak mengungkit ko asal mana, apsal tak boleh cakap melayu, memalukan bangsa ke.
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Post time 24-2-2021 03:32 PM From the mobile phone | Show all posts
sranua replied at 24-2-2021 03:31 PM
Susah jugak ye..pegi SJKC tak diterima, nak pegi SK ditakut2 kan kena tukar agama. Sudahnya memendam ...

Sjkc zaman purba kot tu
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Post time 24-2-2021 03:33 PM From the mobile phone | Show all posts
sranua replied at 24-2-2021 03:31 PM
Susah jugak ye..pegi SJKC tak diterima, nak pegi SK ditakut2 kan kena tukar agama. Sudahnya memendam ...

Sjkc zaman purba kot tu
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capiloton replied at 24-2-2021 01:29 PM
Chindian Looking To Rent Room Rejected Because Hes Not Fully Chinese
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isk.. rasisnya... kesian dia mixed kena pulau mcm tu
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Post time 24-2-2021 07:25 PM From the mobile phone | Show all posts
Pemikiran masih macam pendatang
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Post time 24-2-2021 07:27 PM | Show all posts
Aku baru jer bukak jobstreet punye website tadi. Sakit hati tengok . Banyak betul yang Mandarin speaker wanted. Boleh di katakan 80% penuh bangsa ni jer lah . Level2 bawah macam clerk baru lah diaorang nak ambik non Chinese. Even MNC pun walaupun diaorang tak letak requirement tu tapi Management and HR bangsa tu jugak yg conquer. So fedup with this situation. Kerajaan and Oppostion buat apa ek. Dah lah pengangguran pun makin meningkat of course mostly Melayu jugak yang kena. Patut iklan2 macam tu tak dibenar kan langsung . Tadi ada company tu nak hantar successful candidate base di Papua New Guinea tapi masih nak mandarin speaking....wtf!
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Post time 24-2-2021 07:36 PM From the mobile phone | Show all posts
Rogue98 replied at 24-2-2021 07:27 PM
Aku baru jer bukak jobstreet punye website tadi. Sakit hati tengok . Banyak betul yang Mandarin spea ...

Kalau deyols nak cover, amik semua resume konon iv semua bangsa padahal dalam hati racist amik bangsa deyols je.. taktik ni bukan cina je, india pun ye, foreigner pun sama...melayu pun maybe ada jugak tapi iols tak jumpa lagi
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